Even though it has been almost two years since Steve took his own life, there are those who still do not agree with my talking freely about his suicide. Yes, the embarrassment and stigma associated with suicide is still alive and well.
At the end, a current with such force, can lift even the heaviest of loads and bring them to flight.
Having mental illness does not define me. Nor does it have to define you either. You are strong, resilient, capable and worthy.
It is entirely frustrating to accept that this will be a cycle for the rest of my life, that I cannot forever be the sunny individual my public persona conveys; a mask so convincing that even I fall for...until I find myself alone again.
I have just recently become more creative. I'm using this as an outlet to be in a more positive head space and to increase my self esteem and view of my value in society.