PATRICIA
I never thought I would appreciate my past experiences,
I never thought I would reach a point where I would accept and embrace it all,
Knowing that it has made me who I am,
I am compassionate and understanding because of the things I've been through,
When i stopped using my past to justify my wrongdoings,
and faced myself,
I realized it was freeing,
I never thought I would love myself so much because of my experiences,
I never thought I would have so much to give and so much love to share because of it all,
They have made me who I am today,
I thank God that this was his plan for my life,
I wouldn't have the depth that I have,
I wouldn't be able to touch people's lives or my own the way that I do,
Yes, it still hurts,
Yet, it hurts less and less the more I accept and embrace it,
Changing my behaviors to grow and learn,
I'm thankful that I have learned to process the way that I do now,
I am no longer a caged bird,
I am more free because I accept me,
My past is a part of that!
Loving myself allows me to continue to grow!
I no longer feel the need to hide away to try to stay sane and safe,
I know there is a reason and a purpose I went through what I did,
God has a plan,
I know I went through this to touch people's lives the way that I do,
I never thought I would think of my past like this,
Yet, I have never felt more free,
So I thank God that he has allowed me to go through what I have,
I thank God that he gave me those experiences to learn from,
The freedom that I feel,
In the Kingdom I am building,
What a beauty!
I can never forget I'm blessed,
No matter how quick a trigger from my past hits me,
It is no longer a huge setback,
I am able to tell myself,
"I am happy I went through what I did,"
Allowing myself to continue to heal,
Knowing I am getting stronger,
Setting boundaries,
Shedding behaviors that I used to survive,
I am no longer in need to survive,
I am living,
I'm alive!
I thank God today and always for allowing me to live the life that he gave me,
Honestly,
I wouldn't want it any other way,
I never thought I would love and appreciate God for having a plan I did not understand,
But, here I am,
Thanking you,
God,
For loving me for who I am,
For this life I live!
Amen