I found a purpose in my life after the psychosis episode by attending a particular discussion group that runs on every Wednesday afternoons. I am always looking forward to it as I can meet with peers and learn new things and topics from this group.
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A dark depression took hold of my life when my marriage began to end and consumed everything around me. Eventually I lost my job, my marriage, my home, my car, my son didn’t want to have anything to do with me, and then I lost all my belongings in a tornado. I sat in the ruins, just like I sat in the ruins of my life. I was done.
I woke up one day and realized that I couldn’t take much more. I was done feeling hopeless and worthless. I was done with the exhaustion no amount of sleep could fix. I was done with the intrusive thoughts. I was done, period. I started becoming reckless. I didn’t want to die; I was scared of it. I just yearned for an end to my constant pain.
For anyone going through bullying, depression, suicidal thoughts or other issues, this video is for you.
I am thankful that my art can be used show how it can feel, to maybe help others to understand in some small way what those of us with mental illness can experience.