I have always been a very emotional person. Maybe that is the reason why I have had so many ups and downs in my life. In high school I experienced depression; in college, intense anxiety was a constant struggle. As the years went by, I was able to control my condition through therapy and medication. But I was never comfortable in my own skin. I always seemed to focus on my faults and imperfections. My insecurity always got the best of me. I think that is what made me vulnerable and allowed others to control me. It was a very lonely time.
Then, when I least expected it, I met someone who was able to bring some happiness into my life. But even that was short-lived. What started with a beautiful union would eventually lead to a toxic, emotionally draining and exhausting relationship from which I could not break free. I prayed for things to get better but they only got worse. It took me a long time to accept that my marriage was over. I may never fully understand what happened but I am ready to move on. I now realize it was my faith that kept me from sinking back into the darkness I knew so well. I never lost hope. I prayed for guidance, direction, and the strength to endure whatever needed to happen. Thankfully, my situation took a dramatic turn.
People walked into my life that made me realize what I needed to do. I sought out any outlets I could find for support and guidance. A feeling of empowerment had been awakened in me that I never felt before. I finally found a cause I was passionate about that would allow me to help others. And guess what? My mood has improved dramatically! My entire outlook on life has taken a positive turn. I am determined to spread the word and make people understand that it is OK to seek help and not feel ashamed of what they are feeling. No one should have to suffer in silence.
I do not know where this new journey will take me but I am happy to be here. And I am glad I was able to realize that helping others is one of the best ways to help yourself.